i miss you so fucking badly it hurts like shit.

and that message, when you told me you've moved on. it's what's stopping me from messaging you (even though i really want to). i miss you so fucking much and you'll never know.

i'm just screwing my life up. i don't think i'll ever find someone else like you. i don't think i ever want to. x says i'm just putting you on a pedestal, that i should forget you. but i can't. i really can't.

i need you so fucking much. i miss everything about you. and everything reminds me of you.

i've never felt so lonely before. ever since that sunday that i wanted to end everything. it hurts as much now as it did then. i can't do this.