crept towards your frame

leaning against the hood

of the car i've come to miss.

a lit butt fell

from your fingers as you turned

with that twinkle and that grin.

drove down the freeway

with you in control

of our whereabouts,

just the way i've come to love.

the window unwound

as you taught me to sing

with my heart to doves.

parked by the pier

blades and bikes askew,

you whispered of adventures

in faraway lands that i've come to know.

a promise made

and you swept me into your world

that i willingly follow.

embraced on the breakwaters

it was at dawn break that i

received the kiss so potent,

under your power i've come to yield.

pink blue collages paled

against the breathlessness

such foolish love between two unlikely souls.

i miss you so fucking badly it hurts like shit.

and that message, when you told me you've moved on. it's what's stopping me from messaging you (even though i really want to). i miss you so fucking much and you'll never know.

i'm just screwing my life up. i don't think i'll ever find someone else like you. i don't think i ever want to. x says i'm just putting you on a pedestal, that i should forget you. but i can't. i really can't.

i need you so fucking much. i miss everything about you. and everything reminds me of you.

i've never felt so lonely before. ever since that sunday that i wanted to end everything. it hurts as much now as it did then. i can't do this.