i miss him. i keep comparing g to him, and you know who always falls short. g isn't doing much to help me because he still doesn't know if he is going to end things with his gf. i should just heed everybody else's advice and get the fuck out of the mess.

i'm still stuck on addicted by kelly clarkson, and although i feel less for him right now, i just can't bring myself to forget how he was as a person. god, i've fucked up so bad. what's worse is that during the few months post break up, i did so many fucked up retarded spastic awful goddamned things.

help.